Reflection

I met someone recently who was visiting from out of town, actually from the place where I grew up. We talked about the city we are both from and other events in our lives. He talked about how his night was turning out and what sort of let down it was, it was supposed to be different. He and his friends were out celebrating the end of single life for one of the guys. I talked about my life in general and tried not to date myself too much, you see he was a bit younger and I didn't want to seem too old.

He seemed excited to be out in the big city and wanted the night to be perfect and I appeared to be a part of it. I had been drinking at the bar visiting some people that work there and enjoying a rather nice Friends & Family discount. A guy, the bachelor being honored, sat beside me and asked if his friend could buy me a drink. I explained I was sort of already drinking for free, but if his friend wanted to till come over and order me one that would be fine. He asked how I was drinking for free and wondered if I was dating the bartender. So he walked away and I waited for his friend to come over and suddenly got really nervous. I have terrible luck and hoped this all wouldn't end so badly.

He turned out to be really nice, even with the Emo bangs and guy--liner. Usually a deal breaker, but he was just so earnest that I had to overlook it.

And so my night turned out to be more of an adventure than I had planned and got to see the city lights with a boy, once again. It seems such a canned seduction, they think its so unique and impressive. Yet, they don't realize how many times its been done before. I guess its the person you're with though that matters and not the view or even the reaction to the view, I find it hard to feign amazement at this point. He was nice though and he had a great way about himself that I like a lot. Even though he had a whole persona that he had presented, once we were in conversation it was as if all of that had just been a costume and he may only be that thing to an extent. I just really hope he isn't actually Emo.

The only hard part about all this is that he's such a nice guy. I wasn't expecting this to lead anywhere beyond one night, but it would have been nice to be able to see him again. I mean he doesn't even have a girlfriend.

I have a lot of doubt right now. I don't expect to see any changes and I have to be okay with this. There's still fun to be had and stories to tell so I might as well enjoy it, even with the doubt.

One good thing I have to look forward to is a friend coming back to town. She's pretty amazing and I've missed her a lot since she's been living so far away. So, it'll be nice to have her around.